Letting go

Take heed to yourselves. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him; and if he repents, forgive him. And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day returns to you, saying, "I repent,' you shall forgive him." Luke 17:3-5

I reached a breakthrough today. If you read this boring piece of blog, you'll know that in between those lame attempts of humor, I tend to write pathetically about my past as a therapeutic attempt of getting over it. But there were issues unresolved, some friendships that were broken and never healed, and I couldn't bring myself to forgive myself nor let the past go.

The bible says forgive, but somehow there must be some idiot who pays the price for those hard times. And at my darkest moments, I would wonder if that idiot me or was it the person who said/did those things? It wasn't like I was entirely on the right though. Also, I kept wondering on those mosquito filled nights on how could things been better, feeling that somehow people still hold me back to something I said/did in the past and would still hold grudges even now. How wrong could I be..

Managed to catch up with Wooi Keat somehow in our first decent conversation in 2-3 years (and no, I didn't argue with her the last time round, just that we stayed clear each other's path), which led me to Mel's blog. And looking through the photo-filled blog of old friends and acquaintances, other than those nosebleed causing girls, I began to see that, hey, they've moved on but yet, I didn't.

Forgiveness, it's not just about forgiving others, but forgiving yourself as well. There are things that can never be changed anymore and somehow, this and other events made me believe that when forgiving, it doesn't matter who was right or wrong, nor what had happened, but it's all about being able to move on in life to a greener pasture. Could you forgive?

God Bless!