And they say I'm a funny guy

Was plugging away on an online personality test when my fears were confirmed. It's true! I am ...a funny guy! *gasp* Heheh, you can take it here. Apparently the test is a famous one *scratches stubble on chin*

I always believed I needed a change in environment to be the person I was meant to be. It was hard back in secondary school, where once you've a reputation, it sticks. If you're a jock, you're forever the jock with a steady supply of girls. But if you're down the food chain, you're forever down the food chain, being only worthy of planktons and ameobas.

I grew a lot after school, where college gave me a new lease of life. With my brand new jeans and white tees I could have easily been mistaken as James Dean in my quest to change my image. I had no reputation, making it easy to make friends, hang out and even have my own group of buddies. Heck, most of my hangout buddies were gals, making me feel like the most priviledged guy on earth. Melaka, where I shifted to later, wasn't a gal haven though, but yet by doing the same James Dean swagger, I had no trouble whatsoever with friends. Until I shifted back here..

Its hard having group of friends who calls you out and laughs with you on your lamest attempts on jokes and then losing it. Its even harder when you've left them behind and attempts of making new friends weren't going your way. And its really sad to eat alone in the hostel blocks where people might point out, 'Look at that lonely guy.' I should've told them that I was waiting for my girlfriend, heh. The one that broke me? Going through the disapointment of aghastness shown in my previous church when I proudly proclaimed I was shifting back. Took me longer than the growing of a durian tree to comprehend that.

I guess I broke down and withdrew from the real world, where mine consisted mainly of anime, manga and being the owning Counter Strike overlord between classes and on those lonely nights where you looked upon the stars and wish you could turn back the hands of time. Heck, I even began believing that gals are as cute, innocent and gullible as those you see on anime. How far was I from the truth...

There were a few kind souls in the Christian Fellowship. How could I ever forget Nick's sacrifice so that I could have a good night sleep in Kevin Koay's house instead of him? There was Boon Han with his enthusiastic 'Yo Leo, let's go!' and not to forget John, Jason and Edmund, my regular makan kakis. If you wanna find someone to eat with, they'll just be a BUZZ away. There were others too, but I won't bore you with such facts.

I would have gone insane if it wasn't for them, especially as some misinformed people kept drumming in the fact that I wasn't good enough and had to be extra loud/noisy/religious in church to gain their friendships. Thinking back, I wondered why I bought into their lame reasons, must have really wanted to make it work eh. Perhaps it was my obvious moles that turned them off in the 1st place? Hmm.

It was tough leaving church, but it would have been even harder to be an ageing dinosaur that's rejected. I guess I've changed for the better, though nightmares about the past still do haunt me. Gotta keep improving and making full use of every opportunity given, life's too short to waste. At least nowadays I do have a bunch of friends who laugh with me on my lamest attempts on jokes, heheh, that's what life's all about, ain't it?

And they say I'm a funny guy, heh, amazing!