Sometimes, I look back and I notice that I have 2 types of personality. Though naturally an sanguine (carefree, friendly, funny and talkative), many times I revert to being a melancholic person (sad, moody, worrying, trying to get people to like me, etc etc, haha). And I guess it all boils down to security and trust in Christ that everything would work out fine.
It's indeed not easy when more than half your life, you lived with the tag of a reject. And when everything you do, whether right or wrong were labelled wrong and loser. It's even harder when people you think you can trust go, 'I dunno him man, who's he, not my friend' And it sucks.
And pondering deeper, I always find myself comfortable with people I just met or people that say, 'Hey Leo, we're here for you' And that's when I'm a sanguine with all my jokes, pranks and hula baloo. Hah, only good friends have seen me in that condition, hehe.
Anyways, as the Chinese New Year comes, I felt one thing dat God's leading me to is not to worry too much about what people might think and try to impress them, but just being the sanguine I'm to be.
Yea! Let's rock the world for Christ :) (crazy mode on, heehehe, beware!)
God Bless~!
p/s: Was always noisy and talkative from young. Seriously, hehe :p. Remembered getting sent to the headmasters office numerous times for talking too much in class. They even made me sit with the gals in primary school! Hehe, but of course, I got them talking too, hahaha!
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