The Final Lap

Matthew 16:24-26 'Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?'

Last week was a thinking week for me. I don't have much time left in Multimedia University. Straightaway after the finals, there's industrial training, which will then be followed by the 3rd semester and then graduation. And though 7 months might seem long, it's actually quite fast and before you can blink your eyes and say, 'whatchasaymynameis', it's gone!

And I kept getting this verse coming to my head. Perhaps it's God trying to tell me something, no?

Anyhows, I was just thinking, have I made an impact here while still in MMU? Have I left a mark in the Christian Fellowship? Have I done my best to bless others, help them and even be there for them? And at times I just don't know.

There must be a reason why I'm still here. 6 years in MMU (!) Could have gotten a MBA if I kept to doing Economics in HELP. And it's been a journey, a real long but exciting journey.

I still remember the times when I 1st set foot in Unitele (as MMU was known then). Lost, not knowing where to go and what to do, Sheila Jeremiah invited me to join the Christian Fellowship. And there we were, 10-12 of us that restarted the CF then. We were eventually known as the 2nd pioneers.

And it was great. Studying in the library everyday for the fear of failure and then coming home to the student house in the middle of the night, when the library closed. And it was obligatory dailly trip to the other CF houses next door to joke around, tease each other and to catch up with how everyone is doing, other than to have our Chor Tai Dee challenge (where the gals were sore losers, heh) *grin*

Of course, there were some BGR activities going on too. Some were innocent BGRs and some, not so, as we saw our CF gals getting too close to some non Christian guys. It's not that we didn't warn them, but in the end it was their choice, their lives and their walk with God. We just had to lead our own lives.

The Christian Fellowship grew as we went out of our way to invite others in. We had 38 members when I shifted to Cyber. 12 to 38, no small feat considering there were no seniors around then. Some of the gals stopped coming though, due to their relationships with well..*sigh*

Anyhows, here I am. Have I done enough? Have I taken up my cross frequently enough? Have I blessed you yet?

As I begin the last lap of my race in MMU, I hope and I pray that I can invest in people's life. God's been teaching me to view things through Christ's lenses. Perhaps that's it, to look after the needs of others and not myself. After all, it's not all about me, but Christ who lives in me. I'm willing to die to serve you, if that's possible.

Let me run the final sprint, the final 100 meters knowing that I've done my part here in MMU.

God Bless~