Today was an awesome day. However, at the end of the day, I felt down, depressed, broken and like crap. I don't quite understand why. Perhaps it was the expectations, the hormones, the big group settings and also the past. Or perhaps it's just me.
But examining the day, like any other mood-swinging day, everything ran fine, good and better than expected but ended with a feeling of depression. And at times like this, I just wished that those emotions, those feelings would go away and leave me alone. Why the feelings that don't make much sense? Why the heart that does not listen to the head?
But maturity comes when we're able to be temperate, self-controlled instead of controlled by the heart. Guess that it's a process that I need to learn to submit to Christ to be put on the altar. My rights, my wants, my hopes. Just like Abraham and Isaac.
God help me take this emotions away~!
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