Keeping focus

It's never easy to set your focus on Jesus and remain setting it there. I guess, at times we tend to look at our situations, our problems and our shortcomings and begin to lose focus on the big picture.

Kevin Koay shared on Jesus walking on the lake today (ah, I know you'll be reading this Kevin, heh) and yea, when it came to Peter, inside I went, 'Hey, this is where I am', whereby at times where I've set my eyes on Christ, I find that life goes on smoothly, though there were issues and problems around. But then, I find when I began to look at my situation and 'try' (note the word try) helping God solve them, I find that things don't work out that right. Sometimes, things go awry instead.

I'll be at Mentakab later this evening. And with a message that emphasises on Hebrews 13:5, whereby I share with the crowd about God not forsaking them, I do ask myself whether or not has my life been consistently relying on God? Or have I been rash in my actions?

Some relationship struggles with some friends have kept me awake these few weeks. I guess it's hard when someone stops talking to you if they suddenly find you irritating (or think you're an idiot), but worse still is when you made a mistake to a dear friend, said sorry and six months later the person still keeps the distance. And it does hurt when the person walks the other direction when you come. Sigh*, the complexity of human relationships. Sometimes I wonder if we would still struggle to understand one another up there in Heaven, heh.

Then again, looking at where God's leading me, would I trust God here, even if it means that we might not be on talking terms for another long period? Hmm, and the recent acquisition of the non stick pan would ensure me growing fatter due to eating when I think too much of this on late nights. Time to call myself bulat, heh.
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Had some random thoughts about marriage since I was driving Joel and Fonie around the other day. Why on earth would ladies want to get married, when she has to wash his dirty underwears, cook for him and even perhaps bear children for him too (erm, perhaps in this it's the ladies who want children more than guys, no?)

I guess it's something to do with getting someone you like spending time with, no? Hah, time to throw away all those romantic movies I have. (writing this in a very sleepy state, it's bound to be, erm, nonsensical, hehe)

Till then, replies appreciated!

God Bless!