Busyness yet again

Heyy~ It's been a really busy few weeks or so. We're having Cyber-Christmas practices. And well, I'll be heading to FGA for night service soon. It's been a great year and well, thanks to all my friends who read this pretty boring/obscure blog, hahaha.

Anyways, don't really have much to blog (and I can't find the time to blog, knowing me, I'm a perfectionist in my writing). Will be back with a bang I promise. Do check back by January the 2nd for more.

Till then, God bless, Happy New Year and Merry Christ-mas!

Cyber Christmas 2004/2005

Hey there! We're having Cyber Christmas (as in Cyberjaya's Christmas, not Cyberspace Christmas, haha) soon. Below are the events that would be held. Do drop me a line or call me at 012-6658726 for more information ya. God Bless and see you there~!

Charity Drive - Homes Visitation
Rumah Trinity & Rumah Hope
Date: 29th December 2004
Time: 9:00am
Venue: Gather at STAD

We will be giving out gifts donated by students from
Adopt-a-Gift drive.
Interested? Contact Daniel @ Y! khoo_ch19 or call him
at 012-2077341

Night Event - "The Beginning; The Way"
Date: 4th January 2005
Time: 7:30pm arrival
Venue: Multipurpose Hall
Come and witness the Play, Dance and Band
performances!!

Exhibition - "The Journey; The Truth"
Date: 5th-6th January 2005
Time: 10:30am - 4:00pm
Venue: to be confirmed, stay tune
Come experience and know the story behind Christmas.

Caroling
Date: 5th January 2005
Time: 7:00pm
Venue: MMU Hostel
Bring the Spirit of Christmas to the Campus! Join us!

It ain't too bad after all

'Jump'

I was back at my apartments not too long ago, when all I felt like doing was to jump. Nope, not up and down, but the impulse to jump out of the window and perhaps see the world pass me by in a flash of an eye.
'Jump'

But yet, I can't seem to do it. I'm driven by another force as well. I want to do what God wants me to do. But yet...at times my despair overwhelms me.

Just last night, at Alvin's Christmas party, I felt, 'Bang', and let it all go. 'Bang', and see the sparks fly. 'Bang', and who cares anyway? After all, I'm just a boring guy out there. But yet.. I can't. What a waste of life it would be too.

Looking back, I guess I looked stupid. Haha, perhaps even dumb. I guess at times, I live for people's approval instead of God's. I base too much of my mood on what people think of me, and when someone says,'Oh no, it's Leo', I just go down the drain. Even though they are a minority. And perhaps, even cruel.

I guess, it's time to break free of the past. There was a time where everything I did wasn't enough for those people back in my old church. I wasn't good enough for them, that's what I was told. And everything I did was found fault with. Even fetching people back. *sigh*.

I use to believe them, that I wasn't good enough. That I needed to do more and even more for approval. After all, that's what they tell me. But now, I feel it's more of a cruel thing that they did. What's the point of having friends that tell you that you aren't good enough?

Sitting down for a chat with Alvin (which became a long one), well, I came to realise my past probably ain't too bad after all. Though not popular in Secondary school and my previous church, I was respected by my peers in my club handling and I also had a close group of friends to hang out with. And the kids (who are now 15-19) in my old church, probably looked up to me.

And why this post? I guess, its to tell myself, 'I don't need to try anymore' After all, I can't please everyone and well, there are people that care.

God, help me get the past behind my back and start living for the future~!

Amen

Christmas busyness

Been really busy recently. Just got back from Ipoh, after a short missions at ,Haadyai, Thailand. Will post more pretty much soon.

Till then, Merry Christ-mas everyone!

Quarter of a Century

Today, well, marks the day I'm officially quarter of a century old (and not quarter of a decade like what Michelle D. was wishing me, haha). Well, to me, it's much more significant compared to the time I celebrated my 21st birthday and had a party over here in my house in PJ (ah, Boon, Daisy, Sarah & Marcus were the ppl from CF dat came over that night. Haha, still remember if you're reading this?)

Well, thanks everyone for the b'day wishes, calls and instant messages. Yuet Pei, thanks for being the 1st (ah, she wished me on the 14th! A bit too early eh?). And well, Mel(who wished me b4 she knocked out and then wished again in the morning, haha, farnee ler), Lincoln, Charis (using Mel's nick on Yahoo, haha), Michelle, Audrey & Alvin (plus some others who were on the phone together with them), Beatrice (who sent me an sms and then im-ed me, :P)

Wee Liem, Leona, Karen, Quinie (my housemate, haha, what a pleasant surprise to get an IM from you), Jeff & Joanne, Hock (for the b'day lunch invitation. Hehe, you were already planning this for some time eh?), Thomas & Steph (haha, and you guys thought it was belated :P), My Foursquare church gang - Vincent, Melissa@Meow, Ashley, Siew Har, Pastor & the rest, my current gang member from MMU, Kevin Koh, John See and the rest of the people that had made my day (ahh, so many of you were in the STOMP practice just now). And yea, not forgetting my mom, dad and brother as well

Anyways, thanks everyone. Heard you guys were forwarding messages around. *Blehh* It's been a long, hard 4 years since I was 21. But then, this year had looked so much better. Even more, I had the chance to get to know you all, better and well, closer :) Haha, some even got bullied by me eh? Thanks for all the fellowship and fei-louships provided, lest I can't get through MMU alone.

Before I end, special thanks (and I shall not explain why)to these people who had light up my life and this boring quarter of a century I've lived in to:

Audrey
Charis
Hock
Jeff Yew
John See
Melisa Ann
Michelle Ding
Nick Lim
Pastor Jacs
Sarah Lee
Vincent Lim
Wee Liem
Yuet Pei

Thanks once again~ God Bless :)

Xplore m28

Was walking around the 1-Utama shopping complex when some sales people approached me to try and get me buy the Xplore m28, the supposedly best PDA phone to get now. As I had just bought a new Sony Clie TJ-27 PDA, which was my b'day present from my mom, it was interesting to see how the m28 fared (heh, after all, the salesperson was touting its Palm 5.4 OS)

But on a closer look, though it looked pretty cool (and it could be a babe attraction tool, hehehe. Imaginary situation:Me with my big brack mole saying, 'Check it out gals! I've got a m28!' And then I flash my award winning smile. Erm, award for having lots of yellow teeth lah. The girls then swoon under my unstoppable presence, erm, due to some bad breath, hahahaha *blehhh*), but then it looked a bit funny with a 178*320 pixels screen compared to standard 320*320 or 160*160 screens for normal palm handhelds.

And then, looking at the price, I almost vomited brood, oops, blood, hehe. It was rm 2288 for dat piece of *ehem* not really functioning device. Do check out this link for more information.

Hehe, at least after reading dat, I felt, 'Heyy, my Sony Clie ain't too bad after all eh?'

Till next time, Palm still rules over Pocket PCs! (and Christ reigns over both, hahaha)

Back and sold out to Christ

Hey, I'm back! Was actually writing a post on our crazy jamming trip with Joel and the rest but I couldn't finish it, hehe. It'll be up soon, sooner than later I hope. Just trying to get it short, concise and yet, funny.

Anyways, I'm back. Actually, we're back from Gentings. It was awesome to see God move within the 3 days and 2 nights we were up there in Gentings. And it was the 1st time I was holding responsibilities in a Youth camp, after so long.

And, what was the highlight? Well, still am processing how the camp went. Was really good, really, as the preacher expounded on spiritual truths, the most memorable would be, 'Knowing the bible is just the 1st step, but applying it dailly is the 2nd step that most of us fail' Do we want to make a difference in our workplace, ministry and even friends? Let's live for Christ and Christ alone.

And it was good to be among the youths of SCC Ipoh. Haha, looks like I'll have some bullying targets the next time I see some of them. Beware Yin Ting, Michelle, Julie and Sopphia~! Muahahaha *evil grin*

Till then, do enjoy the photos(!)

Shekinah Youth Camp photos (some photos are not here for privacy purposes *smile)

More than conquerors

Was just browsing through the books in Salvation when one by Joyce Meyer got me reading like there's no tomorrow. 'How to Succeed at Being Yourself: Finding the Confidence to Fulfill Your Destiny' struck me like an arrow hitting it's bullseye.

It seems that this is one area that God's leading me at, confidence to be myself. And it was funny dat a close friend of mine was talking to me about it, the ability to believe in God and have confidence that He'll provide and make straight things in our lives. That even in our careers, ministry and life partners, God will ensure we have sufficient. Not extra, not too much, but sufficient. Didn't God say,'My grace is sufficient for you'?

And it's true. I've been suffering from a self confidence problem I guess. No doubt, I've tried improving myself, my people skills and how I relate to others (as in not scaring others away). And in a way, I've somehow succeeded. Ask those who know me well and they'll tell you I've changed. I'm noisy, funny and even at times, insanely lame (though I would like to think I'm a quietly normal person).

And looking back 1 and a half years ago, I was timidly scared of people. And though upset with myself for not being more sociable (but being noisy at the wrong time), my environment did not allow much change. And I would say, God has indeed lead me through working at Chili's, attending FGC and well, even my industrial training. I've changed.

But then, at times, I do compare myself to others and a feeling of self loath comes in. I find myself feeling down for not being as funny as the other guy, not as fit (and yea, dat includes six packs and biceps, hehe), or perhaps not as good looking (hmm, not trying to say I'm bad looking here). And though I kept my friend's words at heart, it was only when I browsed through the book that I felt, 'Hey! This is what God's telling me now'

Confidence in God, in knowing that He knows best for you. Even the past, the pains and the hurts, God will and can use them. And when only we begin to love ourselves as God loves us, can we see the world from Jesus' point of view. Shades of grace and mercy instead of being judgemental and unkind.

I find that at times, I do try to follow other people's style. Perhaps sometimes, I try to be funnily quiet, and at others, noisily chatty. And then I find I fail. I can't be a copycat. I mean, it won't suit me. And Joyce Meyers addressed the issue on Chapter 4, 'Have you lost yourself?' It's really a good read.

Free to develop potential, that's what the book said. And now, I believe. God's there for us, even when we feel all alone. Do you believe as well? Would you believe as well? Let's put God in the center of our emotions and feelings. After all, we need to see ourselves as God sees us. More than conquerers(!)
God Bless~

Digital Cameras

I was browsing through the webshots photo gear guide, when the prices of cameras in US blew me away.

Just check out the Canon Rebel Kit (aka. Canon EOS 300D). Retailed at RM 3699, and RM 3500 for cash deals, it's now at a jaw catching price of US $693(!) (excluding shipment of course, heh)

Another hit is the Olympus E-1 SLR. While priced at about RM 6600 here, it's only US$ 1080 if you grab it there. Talk about price difference. Heh, we can even buy these cameras there and sell them here over lelong.com.my's site *grin* (and perhaps we should, shouldn't we?)

Anyways, why SLRs? Cause it's at a very affordable price now. A few years ago, digital SLR of similar standards would probably put you back by 20-30 thousands (hehee, did you just got surprised just now?)

Okay then. Till the next post, live long and shoot well (shoot more photoslah)

p/s: Now, any photography experts who are willing to teach here? Hehee, can pay you back in , erm, my witty presence? *blehh*