"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:1-2
I've been downloading movies through bittorrent in the last few months. Not just movies, but other stuff like music, books and even language books. Of all these, it bothers my conscience when the first few of my movies had elements of sex and nudity in it.'It's nothing', I tell myself. After all, I wasn't some sex obssessed maniac who scoured the internet in the wee hours of the morning looking for some *ehem* porn (ha! surprised?) Heck, I don't even own a single portion of porn myself.
But you see, I've burned most of those movies on cd-rs, without even checking for their contents. And that makes it harder to throw them away. After all, why waste a perfectly good movie? And, trying to justify myself, I reasoned that most good movies have these elements in play nowadays, compared to movies of yesteryear. Heck, I didn't know that Dark City, Love Actually or Highlander 3 had all these. They're not movies with smut written all over the cover, not at the first glance anyway. And thus, what's wrong?
What's wrong? At times, I do feel I'm losing God, straying away and turning from salt into something obscure, not worth even for seasoning after watching these movies. After all, Hollywood has never been kind to the Christian cause. Have I lost my holiness in place of some good movies? And didn't God create sex to be something intimate between a husband and wife?
The worst thing is, I find myself changed after watching these movies. Women become objects instead of friends to play and joke around with. And I find, instead of being the crazy original me, I put on a mask.
It's amazing to find out the meaning of sin. Sin in it's original form means missing the mark, like an archer aiming for bullseye and missing it. And at times I wonder, am I the only person who feels this way about movies nowadays? Or do the majority out there actually says, 'It's okay, it's alright' Hmm, I wonder..
And yea, this brings me to the highly forbidden 'm' word. Ha! Pardon the pun, but it's an issue most Christian churches don't address, leaving their members to find out on their own, or worse, make wrong assumptions and all.
So, what about *ehem* masturbation? Is it right or wrong? Is it just a guy thing?
Well, for starters, there are 2 schools of thought going around the Christian circle for this. One says, it's alright to do it as long as you don't think and the other, well, takes it as a sin. For me, I believe it's wrong as it downgrades sex from marriage and makes orgasm just another thing, instead of something special in marriage (ha, I'm using a lot of uncomfortable words here) What's your take on this?
And no, it's a human thing, just that perhaps women don't struggle with it as much as men. I do believe most Christian women control their thought lives better than us men lah.
Hmm, that's it for now. Now, which movies should I start using as boomerangs or cup holders?
God bless!
p/s: I'm not sinless, never professed to be. Just some guy on his journey to find out more about being a better Christian
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