Trusting God

Just got back from our Christian Fellowship, here in Multimedia University, Cyberjaya. And it was a pretty good one, as I believe that God answered my questions and yet lead me on from where I was marooned at.

The main theme of the entire sharing by Uncle Dexter had been on Psalm 118:8 - 'It's better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man' And immediately it spoke to my heart. I've been under doubts, struggles and yet depression on an ongoing basis. And sometimes, I just break down, not comprehending what is going on.

But yet, I try my best not to shut down and be 'emo' (the term for emotionally wrecked). And though these few days, I felt God telling me, 'Trust in me', another side of me kept feeding doubts, questions, things not yet understood. When it gets the better of me, I'll reek with hate, anger and frustrations. 'Why God, Why God!?', would be questions I kept asking God. If only I had done this, or had not done that, things would be so much different. Was I to blame? I hated my past, but yet, was I dwelling too deeply inside it?

Trust in God and not in men. It's so easy to look at my situations and assume the worst out of these. But yet, didn't God say, the prayer of a righteous man is powerful? And Malachi 3:6 says, 'For I am the Lord, and I change not'. God doesn't change for anything. Even when we fail God, God's there for us.

Speaking to Uncle Dexter later, I remembered him encouraging me, 'Hold on, pray and trust God' After all, though our circumstances might seem bleak, God is in control. Why let ourselves be drawn and down on circumstances we can't control? God is in control. I've gotta remember that. God's in control!

And it was pretty good too to get some pointers from him on how to run the Youth/Young Adults that we're going to start soon in church. One thing he mentioned that was engraved in my heart was, 'When you're doing things for God, God'll make things right for you. So don't worry, and trust God' and even proceeded to share some John Maxwell quotes and a testimony on God's goodness. I've gotta get myself some John Maxwell books these days too.

It's time for more faith and more trust in God. After all, I want to raise youths that will impact USJ, Subang and even perhaps Malaysia. (heh, I didn't sound like Phua Chu Kang did I?)

Amen~!