Moments of silence

Nope, this is absolutely not an obituary. Heh, please don't get mistaken. But why moments of silence? Yea, cause I'm the kind of guy who feels uncomfortable sitting one-on-one with someone I don't really know and driving to somewhere. Ask Charis. She knows.

When we 1st started going to church together in my car, she would be silent and so would I. And sometimes the only thing dat breaks the silence are some short mutterings I ramble when some insane driver high on adrenaline suddenly swerves dangerously into my path. Heh, dat was then.

I guess, I've changed a lot since back then and yet today, hanging out with the CF bunch, God taught me something. Friendships are about communication. Friendships are about getting to know you. Friendships are about lame jokes, followed by showing others the lame sign (hahahaha, *evil grin*). Friendships are about being yourself and not trying to impress anyone with anything. Isn't dat what friendships are all about?

Glancing through some old digital photos I got stashed somewhere, I realised I've been through stages in life, and how I actually responded to it determined what God had in store to teach me next.

Yea, underneath the noisy and yet, painfully timid Leo then were layers upon layers of hate, frustrations and anger. I hated myself. I hated the situations I was in. I even hated the CFers, though I re-pioneered it again. And I hid it all behind a smiley facade and my steady supply of Arcade, Playstation and Nintendo 64 games. Anything except facing those issues.

But I learnt to accept this life I'm in and surrender it all to God. And yea, He'll come to take away your tears and make the unseemingly working situations to work out well. Didn't God say, and all things work together for those who love him? Even the bad things? There's no shame in crying over pain, but surrendering your pain to God lets Him use it and use you even more. (I've tried responding in anger, and all it does is to make things worse. After all, it's of the flesh, no?)

I'm glad that hey, I'm finally learning something new! Things are looking bright and right. God, help me be that bright light you want.

Amen~!