The ultimate expression

I never intended to write the following, until reading a dear friend's blog, I was inspired. So, step back and hope you do enjoy what you read. God Bless~

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. " - meetjoeblack - taken from Mich's Blog

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It was back in secondary school when I had this something for these 2 people. The first was a babe. But she wasn't just a babe, she really nice, friendly and it wasn't hard to like her. I could still remember Valentine's day. She had so many admirers until she had to take a taxi to go home, because she could not carry all of the presents home by herself.

But the second was different. She wasn't your everyday babe. But she was someone I grew close to. I guess it was really fun to be with her. I do remember the days we made appointments to go to the library together (by calling lar, what else), the days we studied together, makan together and then go back home on the public bus together in the evening. It was her personality, her wit, her sarcasm and the fact that we could just enjoy sitting in the library together for hours talking and teasing each other instead of studying that made me have the something for her.

But this writing isn't about how nice they are, but it's about growing up, letting go and letting them move on.

I made some mistakes back then. And in a way, everything came crashing down. It was hard back then to accept the fact that we were no longer friends. I sometimes break down and regret whatever I've done, whatever I said and whatever I did not do. If only I could have turned back time and redid everything over again.

Sometimes I would just visit their house, sitting far away, just seeing the outline of the house, pondering if there was a chance that a friendship could be rebuilt again. Pondering whether I had given them such a bad impression of me that they would rather avoid me and all. It was a hard time.

But I guess as I grew up I learnt, that it's so easy to love when you're being loved back in return, in the same measure you give. But it's even harder to love, when you know there's no chance, no hope and no gain. And finally, the the ultimate expression of love, is to let them go their own ways, to live their lives, to let them love and be loved by others in return.

It's hard I know. But could we cultivate this? To love and let go, is the type of love that hurts the most. But I guess it's the most self-sacrificial love you can give to another.

And finally, about them? They're all doing well now. Attached. Do not know if they're getting married soon though. But God Bless them~

Amen

Every kindness done to others
Is a kindness done to Thee;
Christlike love for all my brothers
May the world observe in me. --Brandt