The 'ME' Attitude

Pissed

That was how I felt just a moment ago with regards to a certain person. It's not so much about what the person did or done to me, but more towards what I felt how things should be. Thinking about it, it's not the first time I felt pissed at the person. And it's not the first time I felt like like grabbing the person and and asking, "What's with you?! Why are you like dat?!"

Sometimes, I feel that I do not understand the person, and the more time I spend trying to figure the situation out, it just goes beyond me. Why this? Why that? Why!!? All these are not something I can answer or figure out.

Praying about it, I felt God telling me, it all lies in the 'ME' attitude. Me this, Me that, Me 1st, You last, Me winner, You loser. Sometimes, I look too much at myself, my situation and my interests. And when things don't turn out the way I assumed it should be, I get pissed.

But what right do I have to claim to the person and the person's reactions? Pushing the situation usually makes things worse, even worse than before.

Instead I felt God asking me to look at it from the person's point of view. To give the person a benefit of doubt and space to breathe. To look more on how I could be a blessing to the person. Even if that means more frustrations and going to God for strength and wisdom.

It's hard, but maybe, just maybe, it's all part of God's masterplan. To learn to die to myself and to put other people's interests ahead of mine.

God, use me. *sigh*