Heartbreaks

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted Matthew 5:4

Recently, some people I known have been going through heartbreaks and heartaches. Valentine's day only served to make things worse. Sometimes, we question why God actually allows us to go through these things. Is God being unfair? Is God even there?

What do I know about this? Yea, I might not have been attached, but she was a close friend (to melah, I dunno what she thought of me) that we both were able to just sit and enjoy talking for hours. Never was I close to another girl since standard 5, where Sook Yee was my best friend. She (not Sook Yee) was your everyday plain Jane, had japanese eyes and a huge nose (not that there's anything bad with it) with a tomboy attitude to match. Someone no chick-looking-guys would do a double take. However, getting to know her better, it was really fun to hang out with her and banter around teasing her. She was the one who brought me to church when I had backslidded for 3 years.

However, things happened. Mostly my fault, my insecurities and stupidity. And then, more things happened. It became hard to even attend church. We still attended the same church, but she (and her group of friends) and me just became strangers. Many times, it was hard to go to church, and even harder when I get home. Only God knew how many times I cried while playing Heart of Worship (the only song I knew how to play then) . I kept asking God whether was it ok for me to change church, but God kept sending people to tell me to stay on, no matter how hard it was.

Yea, though it happened 4 years ago and I've since been attending another church, but God has moulded me there. Worship became more than just words on a nice song. It became a meeting point with God to unload my burdens and hurts and rejections. God became REAL.

Has God been REAL to you? Or is your hurts just eating you up that you don't wish to live another day? Come, let's all surrender everything we're going through to God (Yea, even if she's the most chun chick you've ever met) God Bless.

Psalms 71:14-24
But I will hope continually, And will praise You yet more and more.
My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness And Your salvation all the day, For I do not know their limits.
I will go in the strength of the Lord God; I will make mention of Your righteousness, of Yours only.
O God, You have taught me from my youth; And to this day I declare Your wondrous works.
Now also when I am old and grayheaded, O God, do not forsake me, Until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to everyone who is to come.
Also Your righteousness, O God, is very high, You who have done great things; O God, who is like You? You, who have shown me great and severe troubles, Shall revive me again, And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.
You shall increase my greatness, And comfort me on every side.
Also with the lute I will praise you-- And Your faithfulness, O my God! To You I will sing with the harp, O Holy One of Israel.
My lips shall greatly rejoice when I sing to You, And my soul, which You have redeemed.
My tongue also shall talk of Your righteousness all the day long; For they are confounded, For they are brought to shame Who seek my hurt.