The last few weeks has been hard for me. Misunderstanding, hurts and questions. And at times like this, you just wish there was an undo button somewhere, or perhaps a save game to reload unto. But yet, I could search the entire Indian ocean and yet come out with nothing, nada, elek.
But God heals, and I know He does. At dead ends and broken relationships, I know that turning to Christ is so much better than ramming the divider head on at a high speed or playing an assortment of games to keep my mind off things. But God, it's still hard..
Was listening to Delirious' Live in a can album, when the words of the song 'What a friend I found' ministered over and over again. And though I know I would get hurt again, I know He's there for me. Just gotta hold on to my source of strength and hope..
Here's a short poem, heh, from the usually not-so-poetic me. Have fun.
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Perhaps
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I could never understand,
Never comprehend, the distance between us,
Perhaps in my naivety it all seems easy,
Not realising the things I do, do keep you away.
I beat my chest in frustation,
In sadness and in hurt,
On perhaps you'll never be as close as before,
It's hard losing a friend you've known for so long.
In my moments of weakness, I cry,
Oh lead me God, carry me through these all,
Help me understand that You've a plan for us all,
Even in the midst of broken friendships that tear me apart.
As I bring my burdens to the Cross,
My hurts, frustrations and all that bear me down,
He takes me up and makes me whole again,
Is life a circle of going to the Cross over and over again?
Perhaps in time things would be better,
Perhaps it might never be,
I still couldn't comphrehend nor understand,
But I know in Christ I could soldier on..
nice :)
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