I've finally done it. I'm officially a student of a bible college in Taman Megah. It's been a long 4 years wait for me to enter a bible college and register as a student under their part-time Bachelor of Theology program. (It might be upgraded to a Masters of Divinity later) In between, I always felt out of place studying Engineering in Multimedia University here in Cyberjaya
I was never a top Engineering student, despite all the hard work. And for a period of time, I slacked off and did not study due to depression. That caused me to fail a couple of subject and is the main reason why I'm now only going to graduate from this university in a few months.
However, arriving at this point, I find a lot of perceptions that I used to have on Pastors, full-time ministers and even bible college students breaking apart. I used to believe those Pastors had it all made as a Pastor. That upon entering a bible college, you would be free from any form of weaknesses, including lust, anger, greed and even people skills. That by the time you step into bible college, you're the mighty man/woman of God that God has shaped you to be.
How wrong was I. Now, as an official student of a bible college, I find I still blow my car horn at those crazy drivers along the Klang Valley, that I'm still tempted time and time again to sin, to lust, to get angry and say the wrong things in anger, and finally, that I've still got a long journey to go before considering myself good with people (Erm, guess I'm ok nowla, but there are people who are better than me)
How amazing then are some of the Godly Pastors that has been in my life. I never failed to be amazed by their wisdom, their maturity and their patience, as well as their ability to handle people and pastor them. How much breaking and moulding has God gone through with them? And how much more breaking do I have to go through before I can be something like them?
I guess, I would need a mentor, someone who could lead me, guide me and teach me the basics of ministry. It would also mean more and more of dying to self and more and more of blessing others. And in this church, I've a Pastor and a senior Pastor who are willing to teach me the ropes of ministry, that goes beyond bible college. And perhaps even, I might shift out of Kelana Jaya to be mentored and to grow more in Christ, if that's God's eventual plan.
Guess that's all for now on the bible college issue. I had to miss the 1st class due to some reasons, but I've made sure I'm in their replacement class 2 weeks from now. And finally, the amazing thing is that I have not officially sent in my application form and my fees yet, due to the fact I was in Sarawak. But I guess, I'll do it as soon as possible.
Alright then, that's all for now. God Bless and continue to pray with me over this issue ya?
