It's been a long while since I've posted here. Partially, I'm lost, hurt, disillusioned with things, life, church. You name it, it's there.. And it gets depressing reading friends' blogs, whereupon I do feel left out from the MMU CF scene. I just stay away from Audrey's, Wee Liem's, Mel's and everyone else's blog, due to this. Perhaps I really am, lost and away from what's going on over there.
Handed in my resignation a few days ago too. Found it really hard to stay on, when 3 months worth of claims don't come in and you're forced to borrow from mom to survive, being embarrasingly unable to bless others with presents and all.
At times, I do ask myself, has my time in CF and church gone to waste? Are they being nice because I'm their church member/CF mate back then? Or perhaps, I'm of a different age group. I don't know. *sigh
But yet, in the midst of it all, I do thank God for the new friendships found and nurtured during this time. Friendships that sustained me and gave me hope, instead of looking back and feeling that failure. And yeah, working did give me a sense of satisfaction, as giving my best at work became my first priority, and now, perhaps, the starting of a new company.
Am taking a few months off church for now (am still going, but, yea, will be church visiting), as I need the time to gather my thoughts, and perhaps find a place I could serve and give my best to. Indeed, you folks had been wonderful, but it's really hard for me to stay on. The memories of failure is still fresh, and yeah, it hurts real bad to just be around...
2006? I just want to give God my best. To be the best in work, as a friend and yea, as a Christian. God, sustain me..
wut happened?
ReplyDeletedrop me a call if u need to talk.
God Bless,
just being honest.
ReplyDeletesometimes you gotta stop seeing yourself as always right and others wrong.
it helps put some things in perspective as to why things happened the way they did.
Hey bro, now that I 've read your blog. got a little better understanding.
ReplyDeleteWell what you need is a time out...to be away from people and start spending some time with your self. Your time in church serving the Lord have been noticed by God if not certain people in church.
DOn't worry God is watching over you ...
For now spend some time alone,..face certain issues alone with God.Talk to Him about it ...He knows what you are going thru..but being verbal helps u to listen to yourself.
You are going thru transitional pains...from college to working life...I still goes thru it myself...
Church visitation is a good time to catch up with other frens,..just try to visit a church 2 /3 times . Find out whether you are comfortable with the culture within to grow.
If you wanna come visit my church, hey come and visit my cell group first..cause it is the culture of my church. Irene is always visiting mine., We are doing an indepth bible study on John,...I and the cell would like to bless you with.
We are encouraging people in this bible study to ask the questions of our life..i believe it can help you with ur current situation.
Call me ...kayanbutter
Joshua Tan
If you come over to Penang anytime and wana talk, just call me la and I will bring u go kai-kai somewhere with a group of Penang ppl.
ReplyDeleteLife does not just end there after you leave CF lar!
Dude, things happen and we grow up as a result of it...just be strong and lean on God as much as possible....
ReplyDeleteAfterall it's not the end of the world...
we do miss you...
ReplyDeleteand yes your appreciation present is still waiting for you at church.