It's almost 3:18 am.
Just taking a breather after clearing up the house (disposing of dog poo, feeding the fish, before it dies of hunger, watering the plants after 2 days of neglect, etc), when I realised, hey, life has passed me by, so fast, these few months. (Hmm, dunno if I've blogged on this, but..)
Looking at the stack of old comics and computer game manuals made me reminisce about days of yore, times where hot-bloodedness ruled my thoughts back then. Sadly.
Standing here at crossroads now, with decisions to make. Dad wants me active in MCA, and I was thinking, is it a God given opportunity? I mean, we often talk about revival, about reaching out, but at times, due to legislations in place, our hands are tied and bound. Would it be wise to venture into politics as a changing factor? Though, the more you know about politics, the more you see the dark side of it, like perhaps Frodo with the ring in Lord of the Rings. Would I be drawn to a life in the dark shadows of power, deceit and friends ready to turn against you? I wonder..
But yet, there must be someone to champion the Christian cause, and perhaps its an opportunity for me to do so, to be a lighthouse in the darkness, salt in a tasteless world.
Furthermore, I might take a long layoff FGC for now. I know there are calls for me to go back, but yet, I just don't feel like I want to, not yet, not just now perhaps. But yet, it pains me so to take this sabbatical/leave, and yea, I might be running away, but.. not now, not just yet. I need time off, time to do the things I want to do, to perhaps satisfy my want to just sit at the back of a mega church, not involved in ministry altogether for now.
I'm jobless too now. Took the opportunity to leave the job on Friday, earlier then the prescribed date of 1st of March. And yeah, I just turned down a job with a Singaporean company doing Accounting Software. It wasn't the pay, as the pay was good, but yet, it wasn't what I was looking for.
Perhaps I offended many when I wrote about working for others as being not the best solutions, and yea, I'm sorry for that statement. I do believe that you could do a good job working for others, but yet, it's not for me, as I wouldn't like reporting to others all the time, and would prefer a freedom in doing things.
A few new business plans came to mind, and yeah, I might start sooner or later.
And yeah, one last thing. Just cleared off a number of movies, and no, they aren't porn. But yet, I find myself affected by the number of nude scenes/sex scenes in upcoming movies nowadays. It used to be so much easier 10 years back, as those movies had farnee titles like 'sexy' or 'hot mama' or something like that. Nowadays, nudity seems to occur in every other movie, other than those animated.
And yea, I just felt the need to live a life to God's standards, not standards everyone prescribe to. It's not a try to be the 'oh-so-holy' type, but it's a want to honour God, to live right, blameless and in His statutes. Don't get me wrong, I do fall, but yet, I want, I desire to be as Holy as I could. The urge to run with the horses, above mediocrity spurs me on, but yet, sin pulls me back. And the worse thing is, sin has become so normalised that we rationalise it's alright, it's okay to do so. We don't want to look as wannabes, holy-moly types out to impress. But are we really out to impress, or are we out to be after God's heart?
The strange thing is that sex, money and power has always brought more than a Christian away from God's path, even in the olden days of yore, where during the world war 2, they had poster gals, in the 19th century, they had women posing nude for artistic purposes. And now, well, it's in the movies. And it's true, guys are visual. Sigh, sadly, I'm a typical guy, so..it's a sacrifice I've gotta make. Perhaps more movies in the cinema?
Till then, feedback would be good.
Gong Hei Fatt Choy and have a safe journey whereever you're going!
p/s: Sigh* Just packed off a muscle-fitness magazine. I must not compromise on this.
have u read Pure Desire? Its good stuff. I just finished it a week or so ago. Am getting a copy for myself. If u like I could lend it to you. = )
ReplyDeleteFollow your heart dude....
ReplyDeleteList of racial discriminations in Malaysia, practiced by government as well as government agencies. This list is an open secret. Best verified by government itself because it got the statistics.
ReplyDeleteThis list is not in the order of importance, that means the first one on the list is not the most important and the last one on the list does not mean least important.
This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Tamils, etc) who were being racially discriminated.
Figures in this list are estimates only and please take it as a guide only. Government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?
This list cover a period of about 48 years since independence (1957).
List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):
(1) Out of all the 5 major banks, only one bank is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by malays
(2) 99% of Petronas directors are malays
(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese
(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by malays
(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be bumis status
(6) 0% of non-malay staffs is legally required in malay companies. But there must be 30% malay staffs in Chinese companies.
(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, is non-malays.
(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), drop from 40% in 1960
(9) 2% is the percentage of non-malay government servants in Putrajaya. But malays make up 98%
(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the whole government (in 2004), drop from 30% in 1960
(11) 95% of government contracts are given to malays
(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by malay government e.g. Taxi permits, Approved permits, etc
(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is make difficult for Chinese rice millers
(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians were taken over by government, and later managed by malays since 1970s e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, etc
(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia, throughout 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other malay transport companies due to rejection by malay authority to Chinese application for bus routes and rejection for their application for new buses
(16) 2 Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and 3 are Chinese in October 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given
(17) 0 non-malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (November 2004)
(18) 8000 billions ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to malay pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatisation of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over 34 years period
(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(21) 2637 malay primary schools built since 1968 - 2000
(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, malay schools got 96.5%
(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school-text-book-loan, a malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible
(24) 10 all public universities vice chancellors are malays
(25) 5% - the government universities lecturers of non-malay origins had been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004
(26) Only 5% is given to non-malays for government scholarships over 40 years
(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under "Look East Policy"
(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course that they aspired i.e. Medicine (in 2004)
(29) 10% place for non-bumi students for MARA science schools beginning from year 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% malays
(30) 50 cases whereby Chinese and Indian Malaysians, are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003
(31) 25% is Malaysian Chinese population in 2004, drop from 45% in 1957
(32) 7% is the present Malaysian Indians population (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957
(33) 2 millions Chinese Malaysians had emigrated to overseas since 40 years ago
(34) 0.5 million Indian Malaysians had emigrated to overseas
(35) 3 millions Indonesians had migrated into Malaysia and became Malaysian citizens with bumis status.
(36) 600000 are the Chinese and Indian Malaysians with red IC and were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship for 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism of how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compare with the Chinese and Indians
(37) 5% - 15% discount for a malay to buy a house, regardless whether the malay is rich or poor
(38) 2% is what Chinese new villages get compare with 98% of what malay villages got for rural development budget
(39) 50 road names (at least) had been changed from Chinese names to other names
(40) 1 Dewan Gan Boon Leong (in Malacca) was altered to other name (e.g. Dewan Serbaguna or sort) when it was being officially used for a few days. Government try to shun Chinese names. This racism happened in around year 2000 or sort
(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built
(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples, no churches are required to be built in housing estates
(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to be constructed. But told by malay authority that it must look like a factory and not look like a church. Still not yet approved in 2004
(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002)
(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-malay origins
(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese face, and the good guys had malay face. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this tendency becomes less
(47) 10 times, at least, malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13 since 1969
(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. Or these Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to be developed
(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racistly re-delineated so Chinese voters were diluted that Chinese candidates, particularly DAP candidates lost in election since 1970s
(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by Malaysia government since 1960
(51) 0 - elimination of all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) is not ratified by Malaysia government since 1960s
(52) 20 reported cases whereby malay ambulance attendances treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and malay government hospital staffs purposely delay attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200
(53) 50 cases each year whereby Chinese, especially Chinese youths being beaten up by malay youths in public places. We may check at police reports provided the police took the report, otherwise there will be no record
(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down malays were seriously assaulted or killed by malays
(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposit is only about 3.5% per annum
There are hundreds more racial discriminations in Malaysia to add to this list of "colossal" racism. It is hope that the victims of racism will write in to expose racism.
Malaysia government should publish statistics showing how much malays had benefited from the "special rights" of malays and at the same time tell the statistics of how much other minority races are being discriminated.
Hence, the responsibility lies in the Malaysia government itself to publish unadulterated statistics of racial discrimination.
If the Malaysia government hides the statistics above, then there must be some evil doings, immoral doings, shameful doings and sinful doings, like the Nazi, going on onto the non-malays of Malaysia.
Civilized nation, unlike evil Nazi, must publish statistics to show its treatment on its minority races. This is what Malaysia must publish……….
We are asking for the publication of the statistics showing how "implementation of special rights of malays" had inflicted colossal racial discrimination onto non-malays.