Those mosquitoes won't leave me in peace. Darn, I might be playing the wrong notes for Sunday service later, *sigh*.
Been having these thoughts the last few days, and here I am to jot them down before I forget. It's been a priviledge knowing some of you, and indeed, it's truly enriched my life. At times, it challenged the way I thought (which is good, coz I might never have changed and might have remained in my destructive thinking), at other times, I don't know what I would be, if I hadn't met the bunch of you, or if I had remained satisfied playing computer games 24/7.
It's a priviledge, because at times I tend to expect from my friends, expect cause I know you guys for so long, or I hang out with you guys, and it was wrong to have expectations, cause friendships aren't built on that.
Thanks and God Bless!
p/s: Another thought that was constant in my mind was 'building bridges' Hmm, it's so much different than being a pest, let's hope I remember that.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Living by the spirit
Living by the spirit sometimes is an ongoing fight, a race, a struggle. At times I backslide, do the things I'm not supposed to do, and then, after the realisation of it all, I find God far away. The still small voice of God that has been with me, silenced.
And then, came the thoughts that I couldn't really cut it with MMU Cyberjaya CF people. Some said I'm too lame, others said I try too hard. Heh, really? Perhaps it's true I'm lame at times, but, yea, it's never wrong to try getting to know others, as long as you're not a jerk or a pest.
But as I consider, it's always better to live by God and God's ways, rather than get all worked up over all these. After all, haven't I done my best to my capabilities with people? And if my best ain't good enough for them, it's okay with me, life doesn't end with a few people.
Till then, pray for me, will ya?
God Bless!
And then, came the thoughts that I couldn't really cut it with MMU Cyberjaya CF people. Some said I'm too lame, others said I try too hard. Heh, really? Perhaps it's true I'm lame at times, but, yea, it's never wrong to try getting to know others, as long as you're not a jerk or a pest.
But as I consider, it's always better to live by God and God's ways, rather than get all worked up over all these. After all, haven't I done my best to my capabilities with people? And if my best ain't good enough for them, it's okay with me, life doesn't end with a few people.
Till then, pray for me, will ya?
God Bless!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Meant to live (the repost)
Here's a fairly delayed post.
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Worries. All of us have them.
I could live a life worrying about what I'm supposed to eat, on whether the car would explode on me, or even perhaps whether would I ever live comfortably or live like a pauper. But worrying never changes a thing, not like any of your brain power used to worry would make some event change or some relationships better.
Was listening to Switchfoot's 'Meant to live' the other day when it struck as a motto I could live on for awhile. Somehow, somewhere, at times we get overwhelmed by things or events happening around us that we forget that God's in control, and we get sidestracked trying to remedy things that God would've instead solved.
The recent mission trip taught me to hold on closer to God than I ever was, to believe and know that God is sovereign in all things as we make God the Lord of our lives. Matthew 6:25 onwards speaks about not worrying about life, but to set our minds on the things of God. But somehow, among the Christian circles, there are bound to be pessimists and realists that would claim that God doesn't work that way anymore (and I'm sure they doubt God in a certain sense)
But you say, why not worry? I'm gonna fail this project, or my wife's gonna leave me, but I tell you, our God, the God of Abraham, Jacob and Joseph, is bigger than issues and problems. Would you disagree if I tell you that God can restore relationships? (yea, and though I do struggle with a few myself, I do fully place my trust in God)
Living in this post modern world, it's easy to dismiss God as a has been, to dismiss that God has a plan for each and everyone of us. Instead, we worry about petrol prices, our dah-lings (or our lack of that) and even our jobs. And sometimes we doubt whether our prayer would reach God, after all, ain't God too busy to reply?
But I say, Christianity isn't just all about head knowledge, but faith too. Aren't there many people around who know the bible better than us but still remain as agnostics, free thinkers or even the very opponents of our faith itself?
And if we cloud ourselves with worries and doubts, how then could we hear God or even function effectively as Christians? Wouldn't we be just like the seed that fell among thorns, only to be choked, like us being choked in our worries in life?
I used to live powerless Christianity when I lived worrying about whether I could be a better people person, whether why someone seems cold or perhaps why I kept getting my bad stomach problems frequently, but since resuming my daily schedule of quiet time, I find that I've begun to look more towards God and how could I do God's will everyday of my life. Life takes on a different meaning when you begin to live it for God.
Ah, guess this is it. Now, where's the 2nd episode of Lost?
God Bless!
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Worries. All of us have them.
I could live a life worrying about what I'm supposed to eat, on whether the car would explode on me, or even perhaps whether would I ever live comfortably or live like a pauper. But worrying never changes a thing, not like any of your brain power used to worry would make some event change or some relationships better.
Was listening to Switchfoot's 'Meant to live' the other day when it struck as a motto I could live on for awhile. Somehow, somewhere, at times we get overwhelmed by things or events happening around us that we forget that God's in control, and we get sidestracked trying to remedy things that God would've instead solved.
The recent mission trip taught me to hold on closer to God than I ever was, to believe and know that God is sovereign in all things as we make God the Lord of our lives. Matthew 6:25 onwards speaks about not worrying about life, but to set our minds on the things of God. But somehow, among the Christian circles, there are bound to be pessimists and realists that would claim that God doesn't work that way anymore (and I'm sure they doubt God in a certain sense)
But you say, why not worry? I'm gonna fail this project, or my wife's gonna leave me, but I tell you, our God, the God of Abraham, Jacob and Joseph, is bigger than issues and problems. Would you disagree if I tell you that God can restore relationships? (yea, and though I do struggle with a few myself, I do fully place my trust in God)
Living in this post modern world, it's easy to dismiss God as a has been, to dismiss that God has a plan for each and everyone of us. Instead, we worry about petrol prices, our dah-lings (or our lack of that) and even our jobs. And sometimes we doubt whether our prayer would reach God, after all, ain't God too busy to reply?
But I say, Christianity isn't just all about head knowledge, but faith too. Aren't there many people around who know the bible better than us but still remain as agnostics, free thinkers or even the very opponents of our faith itself?
And if we cloud ourselves with worries and doubts, how then could we hear God or even function effectively as Christians? Wouldn't we be just like the seed that fell among thorns, only to be choked, like us being choked in our worries in life?
I used to live powerless Christianity when I lived worrying about whether I could be a better people person, whether why someone seems cold or perhaps why I kept getting my bad stomach problems frequently, but since resuming my daily schedule of quiet time, I find that I've begun to look more towards God and how could I do God's will everyday of my life. Life takes on a different meaning when you begin to live it for God.
Ah, guess this is it. Now, where's the 2nd episode of Lost?
God Bless!
Those lazy, hazy, mozzie days
Ah, here's one for nostalgia. The last few weeks has been bad. Remember the haze? Ah, I had an extra problem of having them mozzies at night for visitors, and well, it's hard to sleep while you're getting sucked off the entire night. The worst thing was that I did not have a blanket and while putting the fan at a higher speed does cause the mozzies to keep away, it does make yours truly down with bad cold the next morning.
And thus, the brilliant me decided to get some mosquito mats (and those mat heating thingy, erm, forgot what it's called) to counter those mozzies. It came in a form of a large square box and a smaller rectangular one. At 3 am, that night itself (or is it morning?), there came a wave of attacks, and jubilantly I proclaimed that the salvation is here in form of mozzie mats and the mozzie mat heater(!)
So then, I strode accross the room (thank me for having good eyesight) and open the 1st box. *drumroll*...And it was..mats! Ah, I thought, ah, it should be in the smaller rectangular one, you know, with technology nowadays, they don't need much for a mozzie heater (after all, centrinos are small, heh)
And thus, opening the smaller box I find..*drumroll again*..more mozzie mats! Ah, needless to say, it's better to read the small label the next time you get some stuffs. Got me sleeping at 6 am though, sigh*
And thus, the brilliant me decided to get some mosquito mats (and those mat heating thingy, erm, forgot what it's called) to counter those mozzies. It came in a form of a large square box and a smaller rectangular one. At 3 am, that night itself (or is it morning?), there came a wave of attacks, and jubilantly I proclaimed that the salvation is here in form of mozzie mats and the mozzie mat heater(!)
So then, I strode accross the room (thank me for having good eyesight) and open the 1st box. *drumroll*...And it was..mats! Ah, I thought, ah, it should be in the smaller rectangular one, you know, with technology nowadays, they don't need much for a mozzie heater (after all, centrinos are small, heh)
And thus, opening the smaller box I find..*drumroll again*..more mozzie mats! Ah, needless to say, it's better to read the small label the next time you get some stuffs. Got me sleeping at 6 am though, sigh*
Holding on to God
It's amazing how God can work when you actually live your life God's way (and saying that, it doesn't mean you've to carry a 2 feet cross everywhere you go, even to the showers).
What struck me, was that during the entire last week, I often felt that the only way to see God move effectively in my life was by holding on to God everyday and making God the center of my life. You see, I am a person who worries about small details, and sometimes it brings me down when I misinterpret people and their actions, or worry too much about my future. And God's been saying, hold on to me and I'll take care of those.
Sunday came, and it blew me out of my seat as Ps Henry spoke about the importance of God's presence in our lives. God understood! (or so it seemed to you pessimists out there)
It all came amidst some doubts as there were people claiming that Christianity might not be effective because of dysfunctional Christians. But, why bother about the dysfunctional Christians when all that matters is how close we are to God.
Some people do claim that God doesn't work cause God doesn't seem to speak to them, or that the taxi didn't come and it rained although they prayed, but at times I do wonder how close to God they've actually been? Sin does cut us off from God, and though we're forgiven, God can't work.
We might seem like freaks though to some people as we get closer to God. Have you encountered someone who said, 'Amen' when the taxi comes or the raise came without prior notice? And if we're separated from God, it might all seem superficial or fake. And indeed, sometimes, some of us has been programmed to be a happy-go-lucky Christian, but for me, there's a difference between a happy-go-lucky Christian, and one that's been holding on to God.
Ah, I sound ..erm, crappy. Enough for now! God Bless!
What struck me, was that during the entire last week, I often felt that the only way to see God move effectively in my life was by holding on to God everyday and making God the center of my life. You see, I am a person who worries about small details, and sometimes it brings me down when I misinterpret people and their actions, or worry too much about my future. And God's been saying, hold on to me and I'll take care of those.
Sunday came, and it blew me out of my seat as Ps Henry spoke about the importance of God's presence in our lives. God understood! (or so it seemed to you pessimists out there)
It all came amidst some doubts as there were people claiming that Christianity might not be effective because of dysfunctional Christians. But, why bother about the dysfunctional Christians when all that matters is how close we are to God.
Some people do claim that God doesn't work cause God doesn't seem to speak to them, or that the taxi didn't come and it rained although they prayed, but at times I do wonder how close to God they've actually been? Sin does cut us off from God, and though we're forgiven, God can't work.
We might seem like freaks though to some people as we get closer to God. Have you encountered someone who said, 'Amen' when the taxi comes or the raise came without prior notice? And if we're separated from God, it might all seem superficial or fake. And indeed, sometimes, some of us has been programmed to be a happy-go-lucky Christian, but for me, there's a difference between a happy-go-lucky Christian, and one that's been holding on to God.
Ah, I sound ..erm, crappy. Enough for now! God Bless!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
The M issue
Was kinda surprised when Irene and MessyChristian decided to blog about the M issue, M as in masturbation. Where do you stand? What's your take on it?
As for me, well, it can degenerate into a short term pleasure and long term regret thing. After all, it does make you feel bad after that and well, it cuts God away from my life, whereby I would feel that God's so far away. But doesn't any sin cause that as well?
Walk victoriously I shall, and well, as for this, I shall just stay clear.
God Bless!
p/s: and I'm no saint, just someone on a journey
As for me, well, it can degenerate into a short term pleasure and long term regret thing. After all, it does make you feel bad after that and well, it cuts God away from my life, whereby I would feel that God's so far away. But doesn't any sin cause that as well?
Walk victoriously I shall, and well, as for this, I shall just stay clear.
God Bless!
p/s: and I'm no saint, just someone on a journey
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Retreating
It's hard when someone stops talking to you or starts disliking you. It's even harder when you've to be in vicinity of the person for days end. And the hardest is when it's a mission trip and you can't get no further away.
The most recent mission trip was really hard for me as there was someone who didn't want to talk to me for 6 months. Darn, 6 months is almost 2/3rds of the EPL season too. And the thing is, it all started from a minor misunderstanding and after that she just stayed away with me wondering what's wrong. For 6 months I stayed away, but yet, she didn't seem to change. Added to that, it's already tough having people who don't quite like you coz they think you're an idiot (and who are they to judge actually, sigh*)
At times I stayed away from the group as it was hard for me to see I was put in cold storage. It was hard and well, I broke down a couple of times, away from the group as I struggled with taking a bus back from Temerloh or continuing with the mission trip. How hard could it be from then on?
It did send shockwaves when I learnt the person thought I was being uncoorperative when I stayed away from the group as they did their walking around Mentakab while we waited for Brother Charles, our contact person. How much more coorperative could I get considering all I felt like doing was either to go back, to cut my heart out so that I couldn't feel anything, or even perhaps hitting myself with a hammer till I become numb.
Usually on normal circumstances I wouldn't be bothered much as I've done my part in trying to resolve this issue, but yet, being in a mission trip and with the person as a Christian, you do want to resolve this issue, don't you?
Last night, someone told me what she thought of me during the mission trip. It's so hard as she saw everything through the lenses of a judgementalist, even though things were not the way she interpreted it. When I heard that, I really felt like the 3rd floor ain't high enough for me to jump off from. After all, haven't I tried my best?
Sigh, I don't know anymore. Perhaps I should just stay away from her and society for good...
Good nights
The most recent mission trip was really hard for me as there was someone who didn't want to talk to me for 6 months. Darn, 6 months is almost 2/3rds of the EPL season too. And the thing is, it all started from a minor misunderstanding and after that she just stayed away with me wondering what's wrong. For 6 months I stayed away, but yet, she didn't seem to change. Added to that, it's already tough having people who don't quite like you coz they think you're an idiot (and who are they to judge actually, sigh*)
At times I stayed away from the group as it was hard for me to see I was put in cold storage. It was hard and well, I broke down a couple of times, away from the group as I struggled with taking a bus back from Temerloh or continuing with the mission trip. How hard could it be from then on?
It did send shockwaves when I learnt the person thought I was being uncoorperative when I stayed away from the group as they did their walking around Mentakab while we waited for Brother Charles, our contact person. How much more coorperative could I get considering all I felt like doing was either to go back, to cut my heart out so that I couldn't feel anything, or even perhaps hitting myself with a hammer till I become numb.
Usually on normal circumstances I wouldn't be bothered much as I've done my part in trying to resolve this issue, but yet, being in a mission trip and with the person as a Christian, you do want to resolve this issue, don't you?
Last night, someone told me what she thought of me during the mission trip. It's so hard as she saw everything through the lenses of a judgementalist, even though things were not the way she interpreted it. When I heard that, I really felt like the 3rd floor ain't high enough for me to jump off from. After all, haven't I tried my best?
Sigh, I don't know anymore. Perhaps I should just stay away from her and society for good...
Good nights
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
The case for Christianity
I've been reminded of Max Lucado's illustration of the 3 brothers, the hedonist, the judging brother and finally the brother that didn't bother (not quite sure abt the last one, anyone?), whenever Christianity is concerned. Sometimes in our walk, we're bound to meet someone who professes to Christ but yet does things that put clubbers and smokers to shame. There are also those who would point a judging finger at this hedonist, assuming that all his judging would do some right.
Heard someone remarking that he won't listen to any more pastors. But would pastors be right all the time? I guess it's not an issue of pastors being infallible, after all, pastors are human as well, and do make mistakes at times. The most important is to find some pastor you can respect and stick to it.
And then, it makes me ponder, are we too caught up in our Christian bubble as some might say? I would only say it's true if all your friends are Christians and you don't mix with anyone else (like those cultist people that fry rats when they run outta food and it's not yet time to get outta their place, heh, just pulling your leg there)
True, sometimes churches can get too carried away with pop culture Christianity, whereby like Britney Spears, churches tend to hype up certain things or books. Take the Holy laughter event or even perhaps books like Prayer of Jabez and even worse, Heaven is so real. And I, on my side, wouldn't even encourage others to go for these books, especially the latter as it might shift the focus to getting more 'authentic' Christian experiences or prophecies instead of focusing on Christ.
And yea, there are bound to be people who would come to church on Sundays but do other things on weekdays. But then, other than encouraging & praying for them, who are we to judge them? Are we right enough to judge their wrongs? You may never know that the person struggling with gay/porn/lesbianism problems might one day become some powerful preacher, do you?
On the opposite end, we might have brothers who overspiritualize things, like blaming God for the haze or for the broken down lift that made the person late to work. Or even perhaps blaming God for the taxi that did not arrive and then questioning whether God's real, if not where's the miracle. And on the scary side, there are guys (or gals) who go up to someone else and tell them that God said they should get married, I certainly would stay away from those though, hehe, after all our emotions 'might' make it hard for us to hear God there, no?
Being a Christian doesn't mean that we become perfect straightaway. Wasn't Peter still an impulsive guy after following Christ for 3 years? Didn't Judas still betrayed Christ after all that teaching? And Paul still had that argument with Barnabas, Christlike you say?
The bible speaks about being transformed gradually into His image. I, for one, know that I'm at a much better state than last year, the year before that and the year before that (I could go on you know) And for me, God's real, just that at times we're too far away from God or we've been focusing on the wrong thing. Which other religion would talk about grace, salvation and God loving us despite our weaknesses?
And yea, about us all being too caught up in our Christian bubble, whereby we put on masks on Sundays and pretend that everything is well and then resume our normal lives later. Guess that it's how your church is ran, and if accountability, trust and getting others to be real is cultivated, the church will truly be a church, despite the flaws and weaknesses of its members (and yea, if I wasn't flawed, I wouldn't even be in church)
God mentioned for us to be as wise as serpents and as harmless as doves. Perhaps its true that at times we could do more than just to pray for our exams, finance and loved ones, we should also keep an eye out for world politics and happenings around the world, whereby we won't be ignorant when someone mentions about the peak oil theory, the economics behind it or even perhaps the Malaysian AP scandal.
Gotta run.
God Bless!
Heard someone remarking that he won't listen to any more pastors. But would pastors be right all the time? I guess it's not an issue of pastors being infallible, after all, pastors are human as well, and do make mistakes at times. The most important is to find some pastor you can respect and stick to it.
And then, it makes me ponder, are we too caught up in our Christian bubble as some might say? I would only say it's true if all your friends are Christians and you don't mix with anyone else (like those cultist people that fry rats when they run outta food and it's not yet time to get outta their place, heh, just pulling your leg there)
True, sometimes churches can get too carried away with pop culture Christianity, whereby like Britney Spears, churches tend to hype up certain things or books. Take the Holy laughter event or even perhaps books like Prayer of Jabez and even worse, Heaven is so real. And I, on my side, wouldn't even encourage others to go for these books, especially the latter as it might shift the focus to getting more 'authentic' Christian experiences or prophecies instead of focusing on Christ.
And yea, there are bound to be people who would come to church on Sundays but do other things on weekdays. But then, other than encouraging & praying for them, who are we to judge them? Are we right enough to judge their wrongs? You may never know that the person struggling with gay/porn/lesbianism problems might one day become some powerful preacher, do you?
On the opposite end, we might have brothers who overspiritualize things, like blaming God for the haze or for the broken down lift that made the person late to work. Or even perhaps blaming God for the taxi that did not arrive and then questioning whether God's real, if not where's the miracle. And on the scary side, there are guys (or gals) who go up to someone else and tell them that God said they should get married, I certainly would stay away from those though, hehe, after all our emotions 'might' make it hard for us to hear God there, no?
Being a Christian doesn't mean that we become perfect straightaway. Wasn't Peter still an impulsive guy after following Christ for 3 years? Didn't Judas still betrayed Christ after all that teaching? And Paul still had that argument with Barnabas, Christlike you say?
The bible speaks about being transformed gradually into His image. I, for one, know that I'm at a much better state than last year, the year before that and the year before that (I could go on you know) And for me, God's real, just that at times we're too far away from God or we've been focusing on the wrong thing. Which other religion would talk about grace, salvation and God loving us despite our weaknesses?
And yea, about us all being too caught up in our Christian bubble, whereby we put on masks on Sundays and pretend that everything is well and then resume our normal lives later. Guess that it's how your church is ran, and if accountability, trust and getting others to be real is cultivated, the church will truly be a church, despite the flaws and weaknesses of its members (and yea, if I wasn't flawed, I wouldn't even be in church)
God mentioned for us to be as wise as serpents and as harmless as doves. Perhaps its true that at times we could do more than just to pray for our exams, finance and loved ones, we should also keep an eye out for world politics and happenings around the world, whereby we won't be ignorant when someone mentions about the peak oil theory, the economics behind it or even perhaps the Malaysian AP scandal.
Gotta run.
God Bless!
Monday, August 08, 2005
Ku mau cinta Yesus
Going over for the mission trip, I had to prepare some worship songs for our devotion. And going through my old pile of songs, here is one song that has words that when sang with meaning, it builds passion.
And its really meaningful to me at this moment in time, as at times, I don't understand things, situations, relationships. Perhaps I am at fault for some of them, but I know I've been trying my best. Storms or not, it's better to hang on to God than to fret day and night over issues over whether a someone would talk to you or not.
God Bless
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Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya
Chorus:
Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anakmu,
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku,
Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anakmu,
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu.
Translation :
I wanna love Jesus forever,
I wanna love Jesus forever,
Though the storms may hit on my life,
I'll still love Jesus forever.
Yes Father, this is me Your son,
Make me worthy to be used,
Yes Father, this is me Your son,
Use me as your tool.
Chords are found here.
And its really meaningful to me at this moment in time, as at times, I don't understand things, situations, relationships. Perhaps I am at fault for some of them, but I know I've been trying my best. Storms or not, it's better to hang on to God than to fret day and night over issues over whether a someone would talk to you or not.
God Bless
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Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mau cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya
Chorus:
Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anakmu,
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku,
Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anakmu,
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu.
Translation :
I wanna love Jesus forever,
I wanna love Jesus forever,
Though the storms may hit on my life,
I'll still love Jesus forever.
Yes Father, this is me Your son,
Make me worthy to be used,
Yes Father, this is me Your son,
Use me as your tool.
Chords are found here.
Friday, August 05, 2005
Keeping focus
It's never easy to set your focus on Jesus and remain setting it there. I guess, at times we tend to look at our situations, our problems and our shortcomings and begin to lose focus on the big picture.
Kevin Koay shared on Jesus walking on the lake today (ah, I know you'll be reading this Kevin, heh) and yea, when it came to Peter, inside I went, 'Hey, this is where I am', whereby at times where I've set my eyes on Christ, I find that life goes on smoothly, though there were issues and problems around. But then, I find when I began to look at my situation and 'try' (note the word try) helping God solve them, I find that things don't work out that right. Sometimes, things go awry instead.
I'll be at Mentakab later this evening. And with a message that emphasises on Hebrews 13:5, whereby I share with the crowd about God not forsaking them, I do ask myself whether or not has my life been consistently relying on God? Or have I been rash in my actions?
Some relationship struggles with some friends have kept me awake these few weeks. I guess it's hard when someone stops talking to you if they suddenly find you irritating (or think you're an idiot), but worse still is when you made a mistake to a dear friend, said sorry and six months later the person still keeps the distance. And it does hurt when the person walks the other direction when you come. Sigh*, the complexity of human relationships. Sometimes I wonder if we would still struggle to understand one another up there in Heaven, heh.
Then again, looking at where God's leading me, would I trust God here, even if it means that we might not be on talking terms for another long period? Hmm, and the recent acquisition of the non stick pan would ensure me growing fatter due to eating when I think too much of this on late nights. Time to call myself bulat, heh.
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Had some random thoughts about marriage since I was driving Joel and Fonie around the other day. Why on earth would ladies want to get married, when she has to wash his dirty underwears, cook for him and even perhaps bear children for him too (erm, perhaps in this it's the ladies who want children more than guys, no?)
I guess it's something to do with getting someone you like spending time with, no? Hah, time to throw away all those romantic movies I have. (writing this in a very sleepy state, it's bound to be, erm, nonsensical, hehe)
Till then, replies appreciated!
God Bless!
Kevin Koay shared on Jesus walking on the lake today (ah, I know you'll be reading this Kevin, heh) and yea, when it came to Peter, inside I went, 'Hey, this is where I am', whereby at times where I've set my eyes on Christ, I find that life goes on smoothly, though there were issues and problems around. But then, I find when I began to look at my situation and 'try' (note the word try) helping God solve them, I find that things don't work out that right. Sometimes, things go awry instead.
I'll be at Mentakab later this evening. And with a message that emphasises on Hebrews 13:5, whereby I share with the crowd about God not forsaking them, I do ask myself whether or not has my life been consistently relying on God? Or have I been rash in my actions?
Some relationship struggles with some friends have kept me awake these few weeks. I guess it's hard when someone stops talking to you if they suddenly find you irritating (or think you're an idiot), but worse still is when you made a mistake to a dear friend, said sorry and six months later the person still keeps the distance. And it does hurt when the person walks the other direction when you come. Sigh*, the complexity of human relationships. Sometimes I wonder if we would still struggle to understand one another up there in Heaven, heh.
Then again, looking at where God's leading me, would I trust God here, even if it means that we might not be on talking terms for another long period? Hmm, and the recent acquisition of the non stick pan would ensure me growing fatter due to eating when I think too much of this on late nights. Time to call myself bulat, heh.
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Had some random thoughts about marriage since I was driving Joel and Fonie around the other day. Why on earth would ladies want to get married, when she has to wash his dirty underwears, cook for him and even perhaps bear children for him too (erm, perhaps in this it's the ladies who want children more than guys, no?)
I guess it's something to do with getting someone you like spending time with, no? Hah, time to throw away all those romantic movies I have. (writing this in a very sleepy state, it's bound to be, erm, nonsensical, hehe)
Till then, replies appreciated!
God Bless!
The non stick pan
Just got myself a non stick pan from our excursion to Carrefour Alamanda. The bad thing is, I did not check the prices of pans, and there was actually a cheaper and larger pan that could steam paus too (paus are chinese buns, pretty good stuff actually. Furthermore, big paus have more meat in them compared to those burgers you get from Burger King. Though, it probably ain't too romantic to bring your date for paus at the roadside)
So, what's the big deal of having a non stick pan? I guess, before this my supper had always been Ahoy! chocolate cookies, Hup Seng butter biscuits (which you dip into a cuppa hot Milo) and perhaps some maggi, boring stuff actually. Compared to that, I've actually cooked hash browns, eggs (hmm, no big deal, but try adding cut sausages and bits and pieces of hash browns in the egg while it's still cooking and you'll get some good stuff that only Chef Leo can do, hee), sausages (and then again, cook em too long and you'll get super hard sausages, eww!) and fries too! Now, ain't that much better in terms of supper?
Though, checking out the pants I've been wearing, they seem to have shrunk a size, aiks! Time to go to the gym, though it's really embarrasing to go gym when you lug around that tummy of yours while the other guys are actually flexing their muscles. They must be showoffs, hmmph.
Till then, recipes would be good!
p/s: How long could I keep a piece of chicken in the freezer? Anyone?
So, what's the big deal of having a non stick pan? I guess, before this my supper had always been Ahoy! chocolate cookies, Hup Seng butter biscuits (which you dip into a cuppa hot Milo) and perhaps some maggi, boring stuff actually. Compared to that, I've actually cooked hash browns, eggs (hmm, no big deal, but try adding cut sausages and bits and pieces of hash browns in the egg while it's still cooking and you'll get some good stuff that only Chef Leo can do, hee), sausages (and then again, cook em too long and you'll get super hard sausages, eww!) and fries too! Now, ain't that much better in terms of supper?
Though, checking out the pants I've been wearing, they seem to have shrunk a size, aiks! Time to go to the gym, though it's really embarrasing to go gym when you lug around that tummy of yours while the other guys are actually flexing their muscles. They must be showoffs, hmmph.
Till then, recipes would be good!
p/s: How long could I keep a piece of chicken in the freezer? Anyone?
Political mileage
I decided to break my blogging hiatus for this serious post. Recent political events in the country has been sending shockwaves in the country. The reveal of AP statuses where it is shown that the AP king had 35 thousand cars under his company has been an eye opener to the way this country is being ran. And furthermore, it's worrying to see the Umno Youth leader proclaiming in his keris that we'll need to implement the New Economic Policy. If that's the case, we might be sidelined even more as non Malays. And for one, I'm no racist, but I do feel that it's a racist thingy.
What can we do? For one, the AP issue is only gonna get the prices of cars up again in the near future, though it is good to see steps being taken to flush out corruption. As for the NEP, I guess we can only leave it to the hands of our politicians. Let's pray that MCA, MIC and the various component parties will do their share. And lastly, I do know that God'll be with us. Take care readers.
What can we do? For one, the AP issue is only gonna get the prices of cars up again in the near future, though it is good to see steps being taken to flush out corruption. As for the NEP, I guess we can only leave it to the hands of our politicians. Let's pray that MCA, MIC and the various component parties will do their share. And lastly, I do know that God'll be with us. Take care readers.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
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