Jekyll and Hyde, wrote the status of a friend. How apt. Sometimes I find myself like Jekyll, having a split personality (and no, I don't transform into a monster or Ultraman Leo. You wanna know? It's Spongebob. Keep it a secret will ya?)
No matter what people say, emotional scars do remain as scars, and it does take time to heal. Don't believe me? Try asking your psychology friends on how long and what situations would help people recover. Harsh environments always never work though.
And no, I'm not getting emo here. Just that at times, I find myself not being the happy-go-lucky guy that's all noisy, but I get all defensive, upset, apologising over and over again (sometimes for no apparent reasons), and perhaps trying too hard with people. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I'm a sanguine and sanguines do want approval of others.
And when these thoughts of insecurity come in, I find myself fighting them head on, wondering if people are being nice to me coz of pity, kindness or just the fact they've known me for long.
But the battle is getting better day-by-day. As I bring every thought to captivity in obedience to Christ, I find it easier to repeat it the next time around, rather than succumbing to my weakness. (and yea, overreacting does make things worse, sigh*) Call me slow, but I just about realised that people like hanging out with people they enjoy being with, people who make them happy.
Now, to blow them away with this new knowledge and some humor!
the best looking of all ultraman heroes, heh!
leo you are being dishonest by deleting people comment and taking away the tag board! sighs
ReplyDeletesome of us just say - this is leo
who are you? Please read the rules, I'm not gonna get in an argument
ReplyDeletep/s: i didn't delete the comments. I just wanted to change to blogger comments la, duh. And, I delete comments which are fiery, so, I'll delete your tag board comments again. Thanks
leave leo alone la...it's his blog after all. Is up to him to delete comments he don't like to hear.
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